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In my early childhood years one of the physicians running those hearing & eye test at my school informed my parents that I could potentially have a hearing problem. So, my parents, being the amazing people they are, took me to see a few hearing specialists. I remember having to do all these strange tests. In the end they paid the money to have the MD come back and say "She is FINE! She just hears what she wants to hear." This has been pretty consistent through adulthood as well. I suffer from "selective hearing" as my mom calls it. HAHA.

On top of the selective hearing - there is the "random comments" I can tend to throw out. There are times in my life when I say things. Afterward when realize how it sounded to the receiver, I am mortified and apologize profusely because "THAT IS NOT WHAT I MEANT!!" It is a curse!! I am not sure whether my brain runs too fast for me to process or if I am just so scatter brained that this happens. It could also be that I, at times, can be a bad listener. I blame this on the fact that I am listening to the thoughts running through my head instead of actively listening to my company. This leave me with being "that girl" who interjects random ideas - well they aren't random. I just didn't help the listener get to the point that I am already at.

Here is the latest: My mom and I were in the living room and the TV was on. Wheel of Fortune was wrapping up and I noticed that each contestant was receiving money. So I mentioned my observation to my mom. This is how the conversation went.

Ruthie: Does each contestant win money?

Mom: Yeah. They make something around $1,000.00 just to go on the show.

Ruthie: Wow,..(pause)... you don't even need a personality to go on this show. (longer pause) Mom, You should go on this show!

Mom: So, you don't think I have a personality?

Ruthie (with confused look): No, that is not what I said.... OH!!!! NO!!!

Seriously! How do you recover this? My mom, at least, understands my *suffering* and so gives me much grace. I still think she should go on Wheel of Fortune.